Who or What is the 'I' in in my being?

Who or what  is the ‘I’ in my being 

( an humble attempt to knowing ‘I’)

All our crucial internal physical process in our body like  -- blood circulation, digestion, heart beat, cell functions and divisions, our physical growth from birth, hunger, thirst, etc. etc., -- functions without any consent from ‘ME’. Do these functions take instructions from ‘ME’? A BIG NO! when the body is hungry, or it feels that to pee, the body sends signals to Brain and ‘I’ act according to its direction. Most of the times ‘I’ act or react to the body and its senses. From the time “I” got conceived in my mother’s womb, it (All internal body functions) works  completely like an automatic mechanism. Then , what is the function of “I” in this body ? Who is this ‘I” at all, in this whole scenario? Whether the “I” is in the body or outside of it?  I don’t know. ‘I’ know , ‘I’ exist only through the  senses. When my senses don’t function, I do not exist, like when I sleep or unconscious. Sense’s by itself does not mean anything , they need the ‘Mind’ to receive the data it sees or receives,  to comprehend. So, if one has functional senses and don’t have a mind, then also it seems one does not exist. Its funny, isn’t it. So , in all ‘Mind’ is the key . And, Mind is related to brain. Most people do not find any difference between the two words ‘mind’ and ‘brain’. Most scientists and thinkers believe that the brain and the mind are one and cannot be separated. Most of the time these two words are used interchangeably. While brain is considered to be a physical thing, mind is not. It is believed that the minds place is brain, but no one has proved that yet.

So, coming back to the query of “I”. ‘I’ am not the physical body, then! Physical body is there , only , to manifest the “I” or whatever it is.

So, is the ‘Mind’ is what we call ‘I’? Let me think. THINK? Who is thinking? Big question ? Normally, people say, ‘thinking’ happens in ‘Mind’. It is generally agreed that mind is that which enables a being to have subjective awareness and intentionality towards their environment, to perceive and respond to stimuli it receives from sense organs and to have consciousness, including thinking and feeling etc., So, whatever, my ‘thinking’ , ‘expreiences’ etc.,  is the result of all the stimuli , my sense organs receives and processed by the Mind, since , may be from my birth or even earlier from inside my mother’s womb! *The mind is an instrument of thinking and sensing on various levels. Mind is called the ‘inner instrument’ or antahkarana  in Sanskrit, related to the body which is our outer instrument. The mind is looked upon as the sixth sense after the five bodily senses and is regarded as an organ, not our true being or the basis of our sense of self. The mind is a product of time and outer experiences, which leave their characteristic marks upon it. So, Mind cannot be the ‘I’, since it appears only  in relation to senses.

But, sometimes , it is ‘observed’ that there is some ‘entity’(inside or outside, no idea)  which seems to ‘see’ or ‘observing’ what I am thinking or doing without any involvement, as if some cc camera is recording all the activity without any action or reaction to what it is recording. Is it the ‘I’ that I am searching?  I Think, some people call it ‘Consciousness’!

*Yoga regards consciousness, called Chit as something other than the mind or Chitta . Chit is pure consciousness unmodified by any mental activity. Chit is awareness of what is called the Purusha, the inner Being, for which the mind is but a tool of perception and expression.

Then, the question is --- Is there no such thing as ‘I’ in my being? Only pure consciousness and the physical body is simply  acting as a vehicle?

 (Conclusion: think, Still long way to go, before the mystery is revealed)

*italics -- taken from Yoga sutras.

Corruption

Corruption:
I think this is the one word or topic , almost everyone's is discussing or on one's thoughts, after the demonetisation declaration by GOI.
Everyone, says and talks that ,Politicians are Corrupt, Govt.officials are corrupt, Society at large is corrupt. But, conveniently forget  what one is doing or try to curb this menace. Pointing the fingers on others is easy. I know most of us are not corrupt and work sincerely to the best of our abilities. But, then how does it grow. Corruption does not rise without ones express involvement, either as giver or taker. How many of the people , who take a high stand on corruption has not wet the hand of officials to get their work done? Society is a reflection of the same people , who make the society they live in. So, what does that mean? Most of the people are corrupt in one way or the other. Change can be brought by individual actions. And each individual action collectively becomes a collective change. Whatever change we want in the society, has to come from the Individual first,  society comes later. It cannot be brought from the above I.e., Govt or PM or CM or Minister or Mayor etc. Ofcourse, govt has to bring in the changes for easy compliance of taxes etc., Unless there is collective will , whatever the steps govt. take or plan will be successful only upto the level of sincere  participation of its targeted people. Blaming everything and everyone for the ills of the society is best time pass for most of the people. It does not work. Be the change , in whatever way , whichever way , however little / small it may be (as small as stopping at red light even Police is not present) to the one of  biggest source of Black money - real estate registrations ( Registering for the full value or price for which it is bought and not for a lower amount)